insecurewriterssupportgroup

It is Wednesday, December 4th. Which means that it is the “Insecure Writers Support Group” Day. And boy I could use the support.

If you are, like me, a struggling writer, or just someone looking to discover some great talent out there, go check out this great blog that I found called The Insecure Writer’s Support Group. It’s a great little community of writers that have come together to express some of the joys and struggles of writing. I hope you get a chance to check the site out. It will be well worth your time.

Soooooo National Novel Writing Month or NaNoWriMo as everyone else seems to call it was a complete and utter failure for me. I didn’t even come close to writing the amount of words that I had hoped for at the beginning of the month. Which to be honest really bums me out because I felt like I was up to the challenge back at the end of October.

I was confident I had everything in place to start my novel. I had the frame work to a good story. 5 friends come together to make sense and come to terms with the events that tore them apart almost 15 years earlier. It was a story about breakdowns and what could have beens. It was an angry story. But it also had a sense of hope.

I had a good idea of who the characters are. What were the things that motivated them. I knew their likes and dislikes. I knew their backgrounds, and what their childhood was like. I knew everything from their favorite color, to the kind of dreams they were likely each to have at night. They were 5 real, breathing, three dimensional characters. Distinct in every way, and bound forever by their shared experiences.

Everything was set. All I had to do was sit down and write the story. But in the end, I just couldn’t bring myself to do so. Every Time I made an attempt, something would come up, or I would make something up; just so I wouldn’t have to sit down and write it. I would be lying if I didn’t say I didn’t hate myself a bit for it. It’s just that sometimes I just can’t get myself going. No matter how hard I try. My brain just doesn’t cooperate. Writing for my blog is one thing. That comes easy. Because it doesn’t feel like work. But sitting down to write a novel is different. That feels like a job. That takes a different kind of concentration. The kind that at this moment in time I just dont simply have. Maybe it’s the ADHD. Maybe I’m just afraid to succeed at something that I love. Maybe it’s a bit of both. Whatever the reason, I sure don’t like myself much for it.

 

4 thoughts on “Insecure Writer’s Support Group Day: My Failed Attempt at NaNoWriMo

  1. Stop right there. You had something in mind, characters, plot points, settings. But you can’t bring yourself to write it all down?

    OK, that’s fine. I can honestly relate to your struggles on putting your words onto paper. But to dislike yourself for not being able to do so is to set yourself up for future failure.

    My point is, so what if NaNoWriMo didn’t go as planned? You can still get that novel off the ground, and find the way to do it.

    1. Thanks for the words of encouragement. Yeah, I have an ugly habit of being to hard on myself sometimes.

      But you are totally right. Hopefully I can motivate myself to work on it now that I have a little bit less pressure.

      Thanks you very much for commenting.

    1. Thank you kindly Alex. And I appreciate you taking the time to comment. I’ve just been having a bad streak as of late, and I guess I just felt the need to lash out at myself a bit.

      Thank you for the encouraging words and the insight. I found it to be very valuable.

      Love the blog and the group you put together. Thanks again.

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