Music to Get Lost In: Mixtape Vol. 2

Music to Get Lost In: Mixtape Vol. 2

How’s it going kids? It’s been a while. Sorry that papa bear hasn’t been around for these past few months. You see, my son, Sebastian Thomas Gonzalez, was born on May 1st, and as you can imagine my wife and I have been a tad bit preoccupied as of late. Especially since we are first-time parents and all. That’s why I felt it necessary to take a break from the blog so I could prepare and then get acclimated to this whole new fatherhood thing. But you know what? And keep this between us, but to my plesant suprise, being a parent is waaaaaaay better than what I expected. I even would dare to say that it’s been rather fun at times. However it hasn’t all been easy. But I’ll get into all that when I write my first official post in the coming week or so.

In the meantime,  I just wanted to leave all you lovely people a little playlist of some of the music I’ve been playing to my kid while Sebi and I are spending some quality time together. Catcha’ all soon my peeps.

Music to Get Lost In : Mix Tape Vol. 1

I’m gonna try something a little different here tonight. Usually when I post for my Music to Get Lost in section, I tend to feature one song at a time. But this time I figured why not set-up a small playlist of some of the songs I’ve been playing as of late on Spotify.

This mixtape is a bit on the chill side. Nothing too heavy. Just a bunch of cool tracks to get lost in the moment with. I hope you get to enjoy it.

1) Chela – “Romanticise” (Ego Official Vedio Remix)

2) Born Ruffians – “Needle”

3) Caveman – “Where’s The Time”

4) Dan Croll – “From Nowwhere”

5) Sucre – “Light Up”

6) Alexander – “Truth”

7) Rhye – “The Fall”

8) Blue Hawaii – “Try to Be”

9) James Vincent McMorrow – “Red Dust”

10) Typhoon – “Hunger and Thirst

Music to Get Lost In: Chelsea Wolfe – Lone & House of Metal

Music to Get Lost In: Chelsea Wolfe – Lone & House of Metal

I’ve been struggling over the last couple of day to get myself out of a mental funk. I’ve tried to stay busy. You know, hoping to keep myself distracted long enough for the fog to dissipate over me. But it’s just not working. The harder I try to keep myself occupied the more I notice the disconnect that I’m generally feeling. So after a few lame attempts at getting on with business I just find it less taxing not to do anything. I’m just gonna let time pass me by until this feeling has decided that its had its fill fucking with me.

On Tuesday I almost wound-up experiencing a full-blown anxiety attack on two separate occasions. Both times I felt as if someone had their arms wrapped around me and started squeezing slowly but surely. If I concentrated on the feeling long enough I would start feeling the room begin to spin just a bit. But instead of panicking like I have on so many other occasions, this time I just kept breathing, and went downstairs to play some video games. And if at any point the thought of dread crept in, wondering if perhaps this was a heart attack or some other malady that was striking me, I just repeated softly in my head “So What? What does it matter?” And just like that, on both occasions the anxiety just moved on.

I guess that after several years of dealing with anxiety I’m finally beginning to figure out that putting up a struggle, or fighting it is rather pointless. If anxiety is our bodies outworldly response to our inner most fears; the fight or flight mechanism run a mock, then the only real way to combat it is to choose neither. Instead of running or fighting, just take a deep breath, and accept whatever imaginary fate our minds are conjuring up, by simply saying “So what?” I guess when we give up the struggle, and we no longer are fearful of our impending doom, fear can no longer hold sway over us. We’re left with nothing to feel anxious about.

It’s odd, but I wouldn’t say I feel sad; even though most people I think might be inclined to describe it as such. What I sense is more like a numbness. It’s a lack of emotional attachment. Funny thing is that this feeling or lack-off it, always seem to come around during my days off from work. I work all these long hours doing something that I can’t say I find totally rewarding, and when the day finally comes for me to enjoy the fruits of my labor, to bask in some much needed time in the sun, the figurative clouds above me are too thick to allow for me to feel the sun’s warmth. It would totally piss me off, If I could manage to get properly angry right now. But I can’t.

I will admit there are a number of things that are going on that are partially the reason why I’m feeling this way. But I rather not get into it right now because I’m not in the mood to write a 4,000 word post.

So yeah, that’s been my week so far in a nutshell. A whole lot of blah with one or two minor victories to keep this week from being a total washout. But on a cool note I did come across this beautiful “Take Away Show” acoustic set by Chelsea Wolfe on La Blogotheque’s Youtube Channel while I was doing some apathetic and mindless web surfing. (Do people still call it web surfing or am I showing my age?) Never heard of this lady before but she does have a heavenly voice. I think you might dig this set as much as I did. Especially if you having an overcast day like I am. Anyway I hope one of you is enjoying themselves out there. Until next time folks. Stay safe, take care, and be sane. Peace!

Music to Get Lost In: Led Zeppelin – Since I’ve Been Loving You

Every morning I tend to wake up with a pesky case of earworm.  For the past couple of weeks I’ve had the displeasure of having the earworm be “What does the Fox Say“, which let’s be honest, is no way to start one’s day. Thankfully the gods where merciful this morning and had me wake up to Led Zeppelin’s seven and a half minute masterpiece “Since I’ve Been Loving You. Every-time I hear this bluesy jam the tiny thin hairs on my arms stand in attention.

English: Robert Plant (left) and Jimmy Page (r...
English: Robert Plant (left) and Jimmy Page (right) of Led Zeppelin, in concert in Chicago, Illinois Italiano: Robert Plant (sinistra) e Jimmy Page (destra) dei Led Zeppelin durante un concerto a Chicago, Illinois (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I’m not one to listen to a whole lot of classic rock, even though I dig bands like Led Zeppelin, T-Rex and Queen as much as the next guy; but with that being said I really appreciate how artist in the late 60’s and especially early 70’s were permitted to have these extended jam sessions. I seems that back then artist had a bit more freedom to play a song out and let the drugs and the alcohol, and their emotional state dictate where the song was going to go. Not to many big musical acts today seem to feel comfortable with experiment with their sound the way bands in the past did.

I suggest that today you put on your sound proof headphones, download Led Zeppelin’s “The Song Remains the Same” (Remastered Live Album) and revel in their blues inspired, heavy guitar sounds. Oh what beautiful noise.

Music to Get Lost In: Smashing Pumkins – “1979”

Music to Get Lost In: Smashing Pumkins – “1979”

Today is November 1st. Which means that it is the start of NaNoWriMo. It’s a yearly event that comes around every November where folks from all across the globe give it their all to write an entire novel in 30 days. I had been debating whether or not I should throw my hat in the ring and participate because I had never tried to do doing anything this ambitious before. But after some good old fashion psyching myself up, I determined that it would be a good learning experience. So Wish me luck with that. Cause I am sure I am going to need it.

Which brings me to my choice for today’s Music to Get Lost In. As you might already know I like to have a soundtrack going in the background while I do my writing. It helps to keep me focused. It’s part of my writing ritual in a sense. And so I was looking for just the right song that would serve as a de facto theme song for my story. After surfing the web sampling a few new tracks as well as some old ones, I came across The Smashing Pumkins – “1979″, from their third album, Melancholy and the Infinite Sadness.

It is suffice for me to say that this song was a personal favorite when it was released back in 1996. And after listening to the lyrics and watching the video I feel pretty confident that it correlates very well with the theme of my story.

So for those that just want to take a little trip down memory lane, or if you are one of those poor young deprived kids that never heard this classic 90’s track, sit back, relax, and enjoy the tune.