Music to Get Lost In: Chelsea Wolfe – Lone & House of Metal

Music to Get Lost In: Chelsea Wolfe – Lone & House of Metal

I’ve been struggling over the last couple of day to get myself out of a mental funk. I’ve tried to stay busy. You know, hoping to keep myself distracted long enough for the fog to dissipate over me. But it’s just not working. The harder I try to keep myself occupied the more I notice the disconnect that I’m generally feeling. So after a few lame attempts at getting on with business I just find it less taxing not to do anything. I’m just gonna let time pass me by until this feeling has decided that its had its fill fucking with me.

On Tuesday I almost wound-up experiencing a full-blown anxiety attack on two separate occasions. Both times I felt as if someone had their arms wrapped around me and started squeezing slowly but surely. If I concentrated on the feeling long enough I would start feeling the room begin to spin just a bit. But instead of panicking like I have on so many other occasions, this time I just kept breathing, and went downstairs to play some video games. And if at any point the thought of dread crept in, wondering if perhaps this was a heart attack or some other malady that was striking me, I just repeated softly in my head “So What? What does it matter?” And just like that, on both occasions the anxiety just moved on.

I guess that after several years of dealing with anxiety I’m finally beginning to figure out that putting up a struggle, or fighting it is rather pointless. If anxiety is our bodies outworldly response to our inner most fears; the fight or flight mechanism run a mock, then the only real way to combat it is to choose neither. Instead of running or fighting, just take a deep breath, and accept whatever imaginary fate our minds are conjuring up, by simply saying “So what?” I guess when we give up the struggle, and we no longer are fearful of our impending doom, fear can no longer hold sway over us. We’re left with nothing to feel anxious about.

It’s odd, but I wouldn’t say I feel sad; even though most people I think might be inclined to describe it as such. What I sense is more like a numbness. It’s a lack of emotional attachment. Funny thing is that this feeling or lack-off it, always seem to come around during my days off from work. I work all these long hours doing something that I can’t say I find totally rewarding, and when the day finally comes for me to enjoy the fruits of my labor, to bask in some much needed time in the sun, the figurative clouds above me are too thick to allow for me to feel the sun’s warmth. It would totally piss me off, If I could manage to get properly angry right now. But I can’t.

I will admit there are a number of things that are going on that are partially the reason why I’m feeling this way. But I rather not get into it right now because I’m not in the mood to write a 4,000 word post.

So yeah, that’s been my week so far in a nutshell. A whole lot of blah with one or two minor victories to keep this week from being a total washout. But on a cool note I did come across this beautiful “Take Away Show” acoustic set by Chelsea Wolfe on La Blogotheque’s Youtube Channel while I was doing some apathetic and mindless web surfing. (Do people still call it web surfing or am I showing my age?) Never heard of this lady before but she does have a heavenly voice. I think you might dig this set as much as I did. Especially if you having an overcast day like I am. Anyway I hope one of you is enjoying themselves out there. Until next time folks. Stay safe, take care, and be sane. Peace!

Music to Get Lost In: Led Zeppelin – Since I’ve Been Loving You

Every morning I tend to wake up with a pesky case of earworm.  For the past couple of weeks I’ve had the displeasure of having the earworm be “What does the Fox Say“, which let’s be honest, is no way to start one’s day. Thankfully the gods where merciful this morning and had me wake up to Led Zeppelin’s seven and a half minute masterpiece “Since I’ve Been Loving You. Every-time I hear this bluesy jam the tiny thin hairs on my arms stand in attention.

English: Robert Plant (left) and Jimmy Page (r...
English: Robert Plant (left) and Jimmy Page (right) of Led Zeppelin, in concert in Chicago, Illinois Italiano: Robert Plant (sinistra) e Jimmy Page (destra) dei Led Zeppelin durante un concerto a Chicago, Illinois (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I’m not one to listen to a whole lot of classic rock, even though I dig bands like Led Zeppelin, T-Rex and Queen as much as the next guy; but with that being said I really appreciate how artist in the late 60’s and especially early 70’s were permitted to have these extended jam sessions. I seems that back then artist had a bit more freedom to play a song out and let the drugs and the alcohol, and their emotional state dictate where the song was going to go. Not to many big musical acts today seem to feel comfortable with experiment with their sound the way bands in the past did.

I suggest that today you put on your sound proof headphones, download Led Zeppelin’s “The Song Remains the Same” (Remastered Live Album) and revel in their blues inspired, heavy guitar sounds. Oh what beautiful noise.

Music to Get Lost In: Hammock -Cold Front

I’ll go through these mini phases where I will be clamoring to listen to a particular genre of music. About 2 years ago I went through a period where I would just listen to low-fi, psychedelic inspired indie tracks. A year ago, for some reason lost to me now, I got into dub-step. So what has captured my attention now? Instrumentals.

The reason for this is that the right instrumental track can inspire my writing while at the same time not be to distracting. So I’ve been listening to a ton of movie scores. I’ve also been playing tons of The Cinematic Orchestra, Murder by Death, Explosion in the Sky, and now Hammock.

I had never heard of Hammock until a couple of days ago. I was scrolling through Youtube when I came across WeSauce’s Leanback Reading Music Playlist. It was a cool collection of mostly instrumental tracks that, as you guessed it, is to be played while reading, or in my case writing. This is where I discovered Hammocks’ eerie single “
Cold Front”.

The music video is somber to say the least, yet there is something rather striking, almost beautiful about it. As for the music, well I’ll just let it speak for itself.

Music to get lost in: Phoenix -Lisztomania ( Breakfast Club Edition)

I think this video does a fantastic job of describing the type of mood I woke up in this morning. I’m a bit surprised by it too considering how tense I was feeling yesterday, after spending a long day at the office, and then getting stuck in rush hour traffic for almost 2 hours. But I’m I’m not complaining. I’m just grateful that I’m feeling this way. I hope the rest of you out there are feeling the same. And if you’re not, well I’m really sorry–just try not to kill my buzz. 🙂

Music to Get Lost in
Music to Get Lost in

Music to Get Lost in: KAREN O – “HIDEAWAY” (ROBOTECH REDUX)

Days like today should come with a redo button. I don’t get why this day was so brutal. From the moment I got up from my bed it all seem to go so frustratingly wrong. The sad part is that nothing really dire happened today. It was just a multitude of little annoying things that made today so trying for me.

It’s a little pathetic really. Because I know I have a ton to be grateful for. Yet it is so easy for me to just forget about the good and focus primarily on the shitty aspects of my life. Which in turn makes me feel like an ungrateful bastard. But I can’t help it. I’m still a New Yorker at heart. Being a miserable s.o.b. is what we do best. But I’m trying to change that. Little by little. Tomorrow I have to go about my day thinking about the positive.

Wish me luck.

Tonight’s song is brought to you by the talented Karen O. The track is “Hideaway”.

 

Music to Get Lost in
Music to Get Lost in